Inevitable change...

My life is once again all packed away in boxes and my room is empty. Change is hard for me, so it's been good for me because as I put each item and pack it away, I pack away a little more of myself, preparing me to leave all that is comfortable and routine for me now and switch to a new normal. I also have been trying to be very intentional about spiritually preparing for what is ahead. Two of my weaknesses this summer will be resisting change and trying to live in the past and also trying to live to please people. I want to be affirmed and accepted which I think everyone would agree is a very natural human desire. However, I take it to the extreme sometimes and instead of serving God, I search for that affirmation from people. I live like I'm constantly trying to be fulfilled and never attaining it. I walk on eggshells and reject confrontation or criticism, even if it's healthy. I take things personally and analyze way too much. So this summer, I want to be changed and renewed and released from this bondage of pleasing men. It's a work in progress... isn't it always?

You know that funny feeling, when you're totally aware that your life is about to change, but you can't do anything else but act completely normal, and yet nothing feels normal about it at all? That's how the past couple days have been... so strange.

Please pray if you think of it, as I transition into this summer of full-time ministry. I want to be used by God in incredible ways this summer! I want to be changed and I want to know God more. I want to enjoy this summer and live simply! I get scared sometimes, so pray that I'll keep trusting God that while this is new, it is going to be great.

Love you and I'm going to miss you all!